tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10078866214160494132024-02-06T21:38:07.599-05:00Lunch Lady to MBAMaking change, not as in 4 quarters for a dollar, but like doing things differently.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-40699537658233260862009-10-18T17:35:00.000-04:002009-10-18T17:35:13.010-04:00Jumping and hopping and changing.I've pretty much abadoned ship here.<br />
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Mostly because the MBA is finished and I'm still a lunch lady. I'm working at changing my status, but really that's who I am.<br />
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Regardless, if you'd like to see where I've gone, you can follow me to my other blog. <a href="http://www.eggday.blogspot.com/">http://www.eggday.blogspot.com/</a><br />
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It started as a means to tell people about a monthly brunch project but it's turning into my food and life blog.<br />
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Hop on over. Thanks for reading me here. I'll be keeping this one up for a bit longer until I can file the content somewhere else.<br />
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Peace.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-36250631743082199752009-07-30T07:28:00.006-04:002009-07-30T08:13:16.021-04:00Summer where have you gone?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7TxnWt4UT0zuIumgD5osrU2aN5gwcTbvjiHZOFutP8CPDFxJA85E4N8pI9wysaiL2xg6J7NVgtOTIebFfifv8khcgEba7yUS7nOxQlVh01mvDDSpuuM5rC9FcDS-W_52P3ENVpVixRjoe/s1600-h/golem.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 160px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5364224956888570034" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7TxnWt4UT0zuIumgD5osrU2aN5gwcTbvjiHZOFutP8CPDFxJA85E4N8pI9wysaiL2xg6J7NVgtOTIebFfifv8khcgEba7yUS7nOxQlVh01mvDDSpuuM5rC9FcDS-W_52P3ENVpVixRjoe/s320/golem.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5ptJxqGmHdKtTWpdBhy_PwJ7vl3RXv9iFRGxTU1VBZzjlV4p9mJtFYt07QoUZ_vNWpsrUBGLwse05TtPrxTThDhc8ftuz78LWcnUuriPmEHNEpOLByS8LkIj_z-VuyLWGCD-r43zechWI/s1600-h/cleo.jpg"></a><div><div><div></div><div>PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/onefromrome/">ONE FROM ROME</a></div><br /><div><strong>I've been basking in the low stress glow of the summer. </strong></div><div></div><br /><div>Well I don't really bask, I fret when there's no stress. So I suppose I get wound up about the lack of directed stress in my life when I've got little to do. Some would say that is certainly not basking. But it's been nice on some level.<br /></div><br /><div>And it's not like I have little to do. I've lists, but they are complicated and created by me so there's a certain amount that goes unenforceable. Like without outside pressures of say a boss or a teacher I can happily put off doing what is unpleasant in exchange for something more pleasant, say reading a book or playing brain numbing computer games. That's such a confession. But as a virulent anti-TV type I keep the "<a href="http://history.howstuffworks.com/">Things you Should have Learned in History</a>" pod cast going in the background. Keeps me from feeling like I'm wasting too many brain cells making groups of three or four gems come together. </div><div></div><div> </div><div>On my list was get a new job this summer, which I haven't done. I've applied for some and interviewed many times for one, but they didn't want me. I didn't want them either, but I wanted the experience of the process, which I got. </div><div></div><br /><div>Write a book was on the list too. I've got started on it, but it's stymied. I did train and run/ride the <a href="http://www.muddybuddy.com/">Muddy Buddy</a>. I did start <a href="http://www.blogger.com/www.eggday.blogspot.com">Egg Day, the Brunch Project</a>. It was wildly successful. I'm still all a titter about the experience. I want to create Egg Day The Musical. I kid. Who'd watch a musical about food? Food movies are rare enough. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong></strong></div><div><strong>I am very excited about "Julie and Julia". I read the book a few years ago.</strong> </div><div></div><div> </div><div>And I'm thrilled about the trajectory of Julie's life. I'm also heartened by the renewed acclaimed Julia is receiving. And mostly what I love about Julia's story is that she was in her late 30's before she discovered her passion for cooking. She was even older when she discovered her personal niche. There is hope for me yet. Also, my name is Juli and still now when I go to country stores, truck stops, or even the little boutiques that sell trinkets if there is a rack with key chains or pencils or cups that are personalized I always look for my name. Of course I pretend to be looking for the daughter's name. If I ever found one with out the "E" I'd snatch it up in a minute. I never do, and I'm saved the embarrassment. </div><br /><div></div><div>However, this is about summer and it's nearly over. I know, really we have until the end of September to call it official, but stores are selling back to school items and I'm making plans to start another fall where I am-at a school-as a lunch lady. And I'm not really as disappointed as I thought I would be at the prospect. </div><br /><div></div><div>I am self starting a proposed state community garden on our grounds. I am restructuring our department to reduce spending. I am being considered for a promotion here. And I am learning all kinds of interesting things about the Turks, Cleopatra, Thomas Jefferson and the Golem of Prague. </div></div></div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-27462173525915173202009-07-21T09:51:00.004-04:002009-07-27T07:46:32.843-04:00350So the book query thing is making my head swim.<br /><br />Actually the query is good. I found a title. You see it up there 350. There's more to it...but yeah for that.<br /><br />I was tasked with creating the pitch-what's the 3 minute version of my book. Why would someone want to buy it? For inspiration? To see where apathy, misogyny, and an overstocked pantry will give your child while your dropping acid or swilling Pabst Blue Ribbon?<br /><br />I'm also tasked with finding other memoirs to read to find some comparisons. That's not too arduous as I'm reading tons these days and loving it!<br /><br />The problem is my timeline. I thought I'd be further in the process than I am right now. And then I recalled reading <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">somewhere</span> that <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">everything</span> is possible if you have a long enough timeline. To me that means stretching this out a bit longer than a few months and that is okay.<br /><br />BTW, 350 is the typical <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">temperature</span> for baking/cooking in an oven. The book is about a cook's way out of the kitchen and away from obesity. Managing my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">tumultuous</span> relationship with food while getting a grip on my personal value and finding <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">surprising</span> amounts of joy in the process is part of the synopsis.<br /><br />There you go, a not so well thought out posting, just some ramblings.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-29251675510324528602009-06-30T23:10:00.004-04:002009-06-30T23:36:14.780-04:00Leadership and Professional Development<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhldFT2bciGl0n0efIbRRH1zs7zX4WaxGCnlmhlTTAvqneutVkhYlMeklG0cz7Fb4SyoFEhPXqiJ5MrKNCHr5m1c32Okhd_OtiddxPyixenHqLfqMMUcSHhlzMjUmvE6O_2WGp02_Ld3Um2/s1600-h/104093341_bc166446d6_m.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5353329033421625810" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 188px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhldFT2bciGl0n0efIbRRH1zs7zX4WaxGCnlmhlTTAvqneutVkhYlMeklG0cz7Fb4SyoFEhPXqiJ5MrKNCHr5m1c32Okhd_OtiddxPyixenHqLfqMMUcSHhlzMjUmvE6O_2WGp02_Ld3Um2/s320/104093341_bc166446d6_m.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/heretakis/">heretakis</a></div><div></div><br /><div>I think I took a class once with that same title. Actually probably I didn't, but it's catchy. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div><strong>Today I was talking to my boss.</strong> </div><div> </div><div>He's a nice guy. I know the kiss of death for a man to be called nice. They liked to be called funny, btw. That's what all the magazines say. Any way, I asked boss man if there were any special projects he'd like for me to take on in July seeing as it's a slow month at the school. He thought about this financial database thingy that the state uses and suggested that I get comfortable with it. Kind of like a back up to his brain for tapping the resource. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>That's all well and good and this girl can poke around databases and do that kind of thing, and she will but it's not my <em>thang.</em> While boss man was talking he mentioned others in his business office area (he's over operations, and I'm still the lunch lady, so read that as SO not in the business office) would have less of learning curve than me with getting intimate with the database. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div><strong>I retreated to what I know best.</strong> </div><div> </div><div>I asked him what the professional development plans looked liked for those folks and if he couldn't align his desire with a backup brain with someone else's desire to garner more responsibility. We of course got massively side tracked talking about performance evaluations and other such things, but really that's my sweet spot and all in all it was an awesome conversation. </div><div> </div><div>I will learn the database thing, well because July is boring and it's learning and it <em>will</em> look good on the resume but really, snooze. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>So if you are looking for advice from this post, I don't have it. Other than, don't tell your boss no, unless she or he's being ethically reprehensible but also know your limits. My biggest triumph really with this whole conversation is seeing that HR, training and development, really is where I want to invest my time. I've been making peace with that for a while now. Having it crystalline is helping. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Oh, as for the peace part, in business school, they say HR is where they stick the failures who can't directly contribute to the bottom line. I think that's a bit out of date, but it's biased my thinking for far too long. I want to be a coach. I want to help people realize their potential. I want businesses to flourish, and that will happen when brains are engaged and people are happy. I can do that. </div><br /><div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-46560801382299648802009-06-17T15:18:00.005-04:002009-06-18T08:51:46.280-04:00Sometimes I Cry<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7NOmYR7d1t9bm3QIZg7w-F9igTTpGb-VmoaGmcP2gVNg7YHT0_OJu9C5spSahry3RL-BrjFvul9Nmu3a8l389stLaxRhBi66ZH4DvuVqp9K5ZA2r68XJcatKFhoIPC8qxJHBL2yAceV2b/s1600-h/2000+juli.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348378350524621698" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 261px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7NOmYR7d1t9bm3QIZg7w-F9igTTpGb-VmoaGmcP2gVNg7YHT0_OJu9C5spSahry3RL-BrjFvul9Nmu3a8l389stLaxRhBi66ZH4DvuVqp9K5ZA2r68XJcatKFhoIPC8qxJHBL2yAceV2b/s320/2000+juli.JPG" border="0" /></a> Photo by: Mike Ingalls, my step dad.<br /><br />I had reason today to move the file which contained this picture. I hadn't looked at it up close recently. I mean this is <em>the </em>photo I use as my standard 'before' shot, so I show it once or twice a month to people. I don't really <em>look</em> at it much.<br /><br />I sent it Gabbi, she's a weight loss surgery girl too with a statement, "Sometimes I forget".<br /><br /><strong>I do.</strong><br /><br />I don't really forget, I hope I never do. But sometimes I just worry about daily stuff like money and childcare and what to make for dinner and the reality of my weight loss is floating around in the back of my head.<br />Then I saw this picture today and sent a note. Moments later I was lacing my shoes to go for a three mile run. I run.<br /><br /><strong>That girl in that picture there, she runs.</strong><br /><br />That's monumental. So much so that I cried. Where else do you but emotions of relief and joy and sorrow and gratitude? I hope I can capture just mind blowing that is someday, because it is. To go from being there to here has been amazing.<br />It's not just about accomplishing the goal. It's about understanding that one can do whatever it is that they want to do. If one takes the long view and breaks things down into manageable pieces. Oh then not giving up. There's so much more to this.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-42170883274644678162009-06-16T14:50:00.002-04:002009-06-16T15:28:52.431-04:00What I spend my money on<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKOlB2VdbQT6ktFLvKgtuFWewneAtuXAC8OksS_47Ejv1O8ITuXB5k4Z4ig7qR2R82_0z0Rqv4SVidPeMgYPntH0oZC_ZJKLtjX8Ja_nqiAtVmeSGl2guMo0ZN3Q2vq3nu2bBqir35Wt9I/s1600-h/3200636568_68d4c25ff7_m.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348009369759651986" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 180px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKOlB2VdbQT6ktFLvKgtuFWewneAtuXAC8OksS_47Ejv1O8ITuXB5k4Z4ig7qR2R82_0z0Rqv4SVidPeMgYPntH0oZC_ZJKLtjX8Ja_nqiAtVmeSGl2guMo0ZN3Q2vq3nu2bBqir35Wt9I/s320/3200636568_68d4c25ff7_m.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/tribalicious/">Tribalious </a></div><br /><div></div><div>So here's the thing. I'm living closer to the bone, as it were, since I've graduated and had plastic surgery than I did while I was a student. </div><div></div><br /><div>There was a little cushion with the student loans when I was receiving them and I wasn't trying my hardest to pay off my debt like I am now. I could try less hard to pay it down, but I'm sure I'd just fitter away the extra hundred I keep back. So I pay and I worry. </div><div></div><br /><div>I would like to not touch the $100 so I don't fret that I'll over draft my account, but I can't not touch it. I'm amazed how much I <em>need</em> something, be it a piece of pork loin-literally-on sale or a new set of markers for the kiddo, when I'm not down to my last penny. </div><br /><div></div><div>I know this doesn't bode well for a debt free life. Or maybe it does. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>I just need to budget every penny.</strong> </div><br /><div></div><div>When I was too busy to take on new ideas I'd list them in my planner for a later date. Well that's now, this is the later date. I'm checking them off here and there and others are in the thinking stage. Perhaps that's what I need to do with my spending. Stuff I want to buy when I have the money needs to get put on a list for later so I can get it out of my head. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>That list:</strong> </div><br /><div>A bed and new frame that's not broken. </div><br /><div>A refrigerator that doesn't leak copious amounts of water. I would not be surprised to find my refrigerator in the basement, haven fallen through the floor. </div><br /><div>Flowers for the yard. </div><br /><div>A new windshield for the car. </div><br /><div>A host of home repairs. </div><br /><div>An iPhone or the new Palm. </div><br /><div>A pile of new make-up.</div><br /><div>More clothing. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>What I am spending money on that cost more than expected or was a splurge:</strong> </div><div></div><br /><div>Dwarf hamsters and their accessories. Who knew that would cost me $135?! </div><br /><div>A new laptop, the old one has lines through the screen and it viral infected. Sort of. It's going to the kiddo who put the lines through the screen by being mobile with the thing. </div><br /><div>I suppose some of the clothing I've been buying is unnecessary. I really only need 5 pair of shorts and a few shirts, but that seems sparse even for me, the girl with out much wardrobe. </div><div></div><br /><div>I can't say dinners out or unnecessary shoes. I'm not doing that at all these days. </div><div></div><br /><div>And before I get crap for poor mouthing, I'm not saying I'm the working poor. Working 3 jobs and still unable to cover my bills. I'm saying that it stinks to worry about money. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>I think this is a study in motivation toward getting that next job.</strong> </div><div></div><br /><div>What do you spend your money on? Do you feel okay about your spending personality? </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-2260945660834412632009-06-09T10:57:00.005-04:002009-06-09T11:19:48.213-04:00Eschew Obfuscation-or-Keep it Simple<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQfecWZIU0QLLBrsDRVUigVs-vK4_dxY-q0aCKauV3CfNAHB9HoPXemC_tnSjRLWbGewf9M60ABExOKTw_06bjYXV-ijkbdhAAih973OllVOgMDoKmMXhh3dW6roFBQRah5WnSlsqBiwkm/s1600-h/word.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5345347158972290146" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 183px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQfecWZIU0QLLBrsDRVUigVs-vK4_dxY-q0aCKauV3CfNAHB9HoPXemC_tnSjRLWbGewf9M60ABExOKTw_06bjYXV-ijkbdhAAih973OllVOgMDoKmMXhh3dW6roFBQRah5WnSlsqBiwkm/s320/word.jpg" border="0" /></a> PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/emborg/">emborg</a><br /><div> </div><div>Dear me, I hate it when people get wordy. </div><div></div><br /><div>Don't get me wrong, I love the language, but when people drop a 10 point word in their conversation, I feel like I'm being tested. </div><div></div><br /><div>I typically react with "you're a dumb ass". Well not out loud but in my head, then I've lost all respect for the person. It's over. I suppose they really don't care if I respect them or not, but that's how it works for me. </div><div></div><div><strong></strong> </div><div><strong>Respect is key.</strong></div><div></div><br /><div>If you don't have mine just go on with yourself. It's going to take a while for you to regain it, if ever. I was at a workshop of the lower levels management, the bottom feeders, where I reside, when the facilitator kept dropping the giant words, quietly. Then the custodian supervisor who is a bit long in the tooth, who couldn't really hear the the man and his big old words would say, "Excuse me" the man inserted a simpler, more humble word in it's place. This happened over and over again. I was insulted. I wrote a bad evaluation. Oh, the scandal. I'm writing about it now. It impacted me. </div><div></div><br /><div>Then there's a flip side to this. Jeni, my dearest friend, and I play the 10 point word game where we drop a big word then the other person finds a simpler version and tosses that in for clarity.<br /></div><div><strong>Always gratifying<em>, I mean,</em> fun.</strong></div><div></div><br /><div>If you are self promoting when you should be promoting someone else, teaching, or lifting him up, stop it. They are disengaged and no one thinks you're awesome. </div><div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-84692541950231393462009-06-02T23:38:00.004-04:002009-06-03T00:19:52.573-04:00To Thy Own Self Be True<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7WfC3dlF002daWSMm_m6ivgPYI-SI2w_mPSDSxMUIkjtPsUdRsbzjJR5e4OXMNupQ0XtOpH21aVqpEB_mn51-_u42ae_W2bOnSXFDViMWbY22IFfOPBsDcZe37l3NMpWOzvJpLRS4z_Hd/s1600-h/300185133_a7cd034221_m.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342950586338064226" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 179px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7WfC3dlF002daWSMm_m6ivgPYI-SI2w_mPSDSxMUIkjtPsUdRsbzjJR5e4OXMNupQ0XtOpH21aVqpEB_mn51-_u42ae_W2bOnSXFDViMWbY22IFfOPBsDcZe37l3NMpWOzvJpLRS4z_Hd/s320/300185133_a7cd034221_m.jpg" border="0" /></a> PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/notsogoodphotography/">notsogoodphotography</a><br /><br />I was asked today if I thought being interviewed for a new job was fun or terrible. I asked if those were my only two choices. I am want for doing that. Give me options A or B and I'll ask if there isn't perhaps C or D. It's what I do. The GF pointed that out. But she's also the first person to ask me a series of A or B style questions. It's how we got to know each other. And yes, it was she who asked the "fun or terrible" question.<br /><br /><strong>I find it fun.</strong><br /><br />I'm an odd duck, perhaps. And fun isn't the most accurate word but I have this odd confidence that has always been a piece of me. Stepping into a room and telling someone how I could potentially rock their world really is like a trying on new lipstick colors. I can imagine myself in whole different contexts in which I don't typically function. I'm a dancer, no a CEO, no a movie star. I get to purse and smack my lips and otherwise show off. Plus there is no sweat on my nose if the color doesn't work. (At this point I'm still gainfully employed, if that were to change perhaps my nose would sweat.)<br /><br /><strong>I do have some interesting talents that I can show off. </strong><br /><br />I mean I'm no management ninja, but I've been around and I love big picture stuff. I can tell you my weaknesses oops, I mean opportunities and how I surmount them. I can site examples of bad and good situations. How I've been shot down and misunderstood and I can paint rosy pictures of my learning and the benefits to the organization. I'm that good.<br /><br />I just really don't want to go and <em>look </em>for a job. I'd like the perfect one to fall into my lap. Don't we all? What has me scratching my head is that looking is akin to work. I don't mind work. So I don't know where the disconnect is happening. Well, yeah I do. It's coming to me as I type.<br /><br /><br /><br />I don't know where to find the job that I want. I know what it is. It's coaching and consulting. It's getting results in a big way, not fixing simple problems. It's having measurable impact, and by measurable I don't mean reducing labor costs by 1% but by kicking ass and taking names.<br /><br />Oh that's ugly. There's a reason why they say, "don't write with cliches." I want to hold you down by the throat and make you accountable? I want to show you who is boss and never let you forget it? No, I want to take your knotty issues and I want to help you find elegant solutions of which make you proud.<br /><br />So now I'm pondering the question, do I work at creating Julianna: The Industry (JTI) with more earnestness while attempting to cipher out my place in the job market or do I dive head first into the job market and back burner the JTI.<br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>And kids, I think I just named my business.</strong><br /><br />Well not really. I need to come up with something that is active and catchy that equals JTI, "Julianna: The Industry" will be our little inside joke. Share your ideas. And really I think earnestness is going to win over back burnering it. Feel free to weigh in on that as well. All both of you.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-60467118043787165512009-05-31T20:18:00.008-04:002009-06-01T22:49:41.853-04:00What makes a memoir?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVGvH5WdWxuAgxftrX_RP1chyphenhyphenZG8MP7B-S3GB3DYLU21Hlb_yA1cSEU1sr3J36kzKfQ0egFP_7sOEuNNIAvu6UXPIgp9a4VKfLJl1SDjOxHMa4IWAhC4uns9YXaRuS3dyZijSQHAreqSVQ/s1600-h/2528414176_f8f24decef_m.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342555888650334674" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 180px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVGvH5WdWxuAgxftrX_RP1chyphenhyphenZG8MP7B-S3GB3DYLU21Hlb_yA1cSEU1sr3J36kzKfQ0egFP_7sOEuNNIAvu6UXPIgp9a4VKfLJl1SDjOxHMa4IWAhC4uns9YXaRuS3dyZijSQHAreqSVQ/s320/2528414176_f8f24decef_m.jpg" border="0" /></a> PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ponderer/">idealism<br /></a><div></div><br /><div>The genre is memoir. The good news is that there are many resources on how not to stink at writing one. </div><br /><div></div><div>The bad news is that I need to find a way not to be preachy and not to be boring. I think I can find that way but it's a skill that needs honed. Yeah, people I know all skills need to be honed. Have you seen my portrait painting? No, no you haven't because while I can paint a little like there's a bit a raw talent that was genetically gifted me, I've never taken the time to hone the skill. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>My sister's art rocks.</strong> </div><div> </div><div></div><div>I can practice writing.</div><br /><div></div><div>But upon a little more introspection, I've missed a glaring but very important piece of the last five years. What's funny is that if you just even look at the titles of many of these entries they are often about my friends. Well, when I had that "you've got to change you're life" epiphany many years ago another thing aside from losing weight and going back to school 'was cultivate new friendships'. </div><div></div><br /><div>When the divorce/separation/split happened I lost many friends.<em> </em>I suppose by definition they weren't much in way of friends. However I was very isolated. I had one or two who've been with for decades but ouch. I was very alone. </div><br /><div></div><div>So I sought me out some friends in a very managed, structure, strategic way. And don't all go getting your feelings hurt. It wasn't like my feelings were insincere. I wasn't just collecting people to call my friends, but when I made a connection, I really tried to nurture it. And I plotted to find people with interests that would expand mine. I found me some cycling friends, some wine drinking friends, some pulse on current culture friends, some weight loss surgery friends, some mommy friends and low and behold some you had the same career/education path as me friends. </div><div></div><br /><div>They are the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">tri</span> in the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">trifecta</span> of what has made my happiness happen. Or I made happy and the friends swooped in. I don't know which came first but regardless they are monumental. </div><br /><div></div><div>So the question, all <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">SATC</span> (sex and the city) style, do we get what we want then become attractive or to we make ourselves attractive then people find us? And I don't mean I'm cute now so I have friends, but what comes first opening ones self up to new the possibility of cultivating relationships or finding the relationship and cultivating it?</div><br /><div></div><div>Regardless, my buddies have all been instrumental in giving me the support and encouragement and a side helping of pragmatism that has done more to foster my success than anything I could have created on my own. And that was I believe the missing piece to how I write this thing that I so badly want to write. </div><br /><div></div><div>So thanks. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-53179906702639994172009-05-28T23:08:00.008-04:002009-05-29T14:56:11.135-04:00Style<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMzTjeDgNfd-GiP1tJxr7EQY7mEM3kADyshoZVftOgZAZH1AIFNuYb9AK0xPWHdUoN7QQtRK1CZDh5XXV3gaLj-Zc04PYDoRZGEtMd1Vf5qQWPnky8XFPCyyxmHZEoYVYF2hUK44gllQJf/s1600-h/fashion.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5341321392304976706" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 160px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMzTjeDgNfd-GiP1tJxr7EQY7mEM3kADyshoZVftOgZAZH1AIFNuYb9AK0xPWHdUoN7QQtRK1CZDh5XXV3gaLj-Zc04PYDoRZGEtMd1Vf5qQWPnky8XFPCyyxmHZEoYVYF2hUK44gllQJf/s320/fashion.jpg" border="0" /></a> Photo By: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/uaeincredible/">Capture Queen<br /></a><div><br />I found my style while shopping this past weekend in Chicago, I didn't buy anything but that's beside the point. It is no small feat for a woman of 41, who rarely dressed for occasions, who would shop just to cover her body to figure out what works or not works. I mean I could tell you what I didn't like, but that's about style.<br /><br /><strong>This is about style, comfort and fit.</strong><br /><br />This is about me <em>wearing</em> the clothes, not the clothes <em>wearing</em> me. About feeling good about how I look. Apparently I like to wear tight pants. Who knew. I'm not talking about lay down on the bed to button them pants, but I like um snug. I'm amused.<br /><br />I like clean lines with some details. Nothing too frilly and certainly nothing that looks too trendy. I equate trendy with cheap. Trendy does not equal current. There are current things that don't look cheap which I like. If you were wondering. You probably weren't but some people do.<br /><br />I've talked more about clothing my new body with more people than I care to recount here. You might find me vapid if I actually sited numbers, time spent and content of those conversations.<br /><br />And why are you still reading about one woman's shopping victories? Because there's something in the narrative which is emotional, logical and analytical, and those are the pieces of decent story telling.<br /><br />Emotional: We all struggle to feel good in our bodies. Part of that is how we look, and part of how we look is how we dress. When that falls apart our emotions get all jumbled.<br /><br /><strong>I am not the first woman to cry in a dressing room at Macy's.</strong><br /><br />Logical: If you've been following my story, it makes sense that I'm newly discovering how to dress and how to shop. Ms. Deirdre is the oldest of three girls and knows her way around a clothing store and how to build relationships with the people working there. I'm learning from the master. And because I'm soliciting every woman I know who has a bit of panache in her style I'm learning 1. Women can talk shopping; 2. One must hit all kinds of stores in the off chance you'll find a piece that works; 3. Finding the piece is what the shopper's high is all about. It's makes all the searching and trying worth the effort.<br /><br /><p><strong>The progression: Lose weight, shop for new clothing, look hot. It's a girl's dream come true.</strong><br /></p><br /><p>Analytical: Really this is more than just clothing a body. This is about watching someone discover things taken for granted and having a new found appreciation for what you already know. Women more than 20 years younger than me figure this stuff out. Is it like watching a baby learn to walk? Perhaps not as profound, but it is along those lines. So here I am dressing myself, "look momma I tied my shoe!" walking tall and proud. You too can remember learning to tie your shoe, learning what works on your body type. </p><p><strong>You can and walk tall beside me.</strong> </p>And yeah, we'll save the world next week. I get that this is shallow on one side but it's deeply relevant on the spectrum of awareness and presentation and how we build relationships, which is fact, the point of it all. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-49378900275313449702009-05-26T09:28:00.004-04:002009-05-26T20:58:42.731-04:00Picking Up Pennies<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTPrqCWXvAmuB7fziMK-NbYGITqdAFDRWc15lt4XxU4Y0kIUghswsf_lR5KF_hwqfuWMRUhAZvKHdX1TeJBQ9eQekpR3poAJlDckQ4xPlqE9tLkd153dAtI-Vqt7UjPnsYUyu0iVSRddMI/s1600-h/penny.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5340301281676917122" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTPrqCWXvAmuB7fziMK-NbYGITqdAFDRWc15lt4XxU4Y0kIUghswsf_lR5KF_hwqfuWMRUhAZvKHdX1TeJBQ9eQekpR3poAJlDckQ4xPlqE9tLkd153dAtI-Vqt7UjPnsYUyu0iVSRddMI/s320/penny.jpg" border="0" /></a> PHOTO BY: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/dawnzy/">dawnzy</a> <div></div><br /><div><strong>See a penny</strong></div><div><strong>Pick it up</strong></div><div><strong>and all day long </strong></div><div><strong>You'll have good luck.</strong></div><br /><div></div><div>I actually stopped in the middle of run today to pick up a penny. It was near the end of the run, I had been thinking about the whole penny picking up thing today, and there it was all gnarly and chewed up, but I had to stop. I didn't want to be a hypocrate and I didn't want to miss an opportunity. </div><br /><div></div><div>Once I thought there were only two camps of penny picker uppers. Those who did and those who didn't. I hadn't realized that there are actually penny pitchers. Not pinchers, but pitcher-like thrower awayers. My heart skipped a beat when my friend who remains my friend told me she will throw pennies away. I hope now she'll stop or at least throw them out the car window so someone who finds them beneficial can maybe pick them up. Yes, I'm advocating littering, but littering with value. Even if it is only a penny. </div><br /><div></div><div>I obviously pick them up. </div><div></div><br /><div>I know they don't carry much value. One can not find penny candy, but I see them as little pieces of opportunity. Like if you are so busy or so beside yourself with importance to not pick one up, then you will be too inwardly focused to see other opportunities that present themselves to you. </div><div></div><br /><div>That touches the theory of do we manifest opportunity or does plop on a plate in front of us? I think it's a little of both. We are all just a lucky happening that we got born, but what we do with it once sentient and somewhat on our own maybe 20 years later is a whole lot of work on our part and the parts of those who kept us from dying when we were growing up. </div><br /><div></div><div>At any rate, seeing the penny and stooping to pick it up is more about reminding myself to keep my eyes open and making room for possibilities. It reminds me that little things have value and that regardless of how wealthy I hopefully become (and don't think that's not a goal, it is.) I mean how likely will the universe send me something meaningful if I choose to be oblivious to the little things or think I'm too significant to care about a penny? </div><br /><div></div><div>And Deirdre, I still love you. BTW, I'm renaming all my friends for The Book. And no, you don't get a say.<br /></div><div></div><br /><div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-57448721606190677762009-05-25T23:04:00.006-04:002009-05-25T23:36:52.301-04:00Talking Stuff as in Junk<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia3-7ljHxeWK8E-LTvH8YLgSSMlRPxvWLorfDPpWol37CHJhsa1y8UhEe1w49ZMTVuuoGyyM-ZCPKFoSeLUrzOs02EJcU2OJ1OhjFvbAxmqkzAz-R2hy7DfL5HjGXr9P-aC_Am-vV9pDt5/s1600-h/advice.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5339969702094291794" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 180px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia3-7ljHxeWK8E-LTvH8YLgSSMlRPxvWLorfDPpWol37CHJhsa1y8UhEe1w49ZMTVuuoGyyM-ZCPKFoSeLUrzOs02EJcU2OJ1OhjFvbAxmqkzAz-R2hy7DfL5HjGXr9P-aC_Am-vV9pDt5/s320/advice.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong></strong></div>Photo by:<a href="http://http//www.flickr.com/photos/wurzle/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Laughlin</span></span></a><br /><div><strong>Have I said this before?</strong> </div><br /><div></div><div>1. You are what you say you are. If you say you're smart, people will find you to be smart. It's a cool way to manifest your own reputation. I suppose you can't go around calling yourself a super smarty pants all the time then do idiotic things because then you'll look like you're not very self aware or you've got a bad grasp of meaning of smart, but the point is people will believe about you what you say about you. </div><br /><div></div><div>2. "I'm a mess" or "I'm the worst friend ever!" things like that which are not so subtle ways of taking the pressure off yourself for your own <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">perceived</span> short comings also will get you a handy <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">label</span>. A very adept dude I know, someone whom I look up to, calls himself a mess regularly. Sad really. I'm wondering if I shouldn't be looking up to him. Like where's this mess hiding? If I get closer will I be called in to clean it up? </div><br /><div></div><div>The worst friend ever comment really lodged itself deeply with me. I was nudging a friend for a little conversation and she was sending all the signals that her life was a bit hectic at the time, so I backed off and got my nudging on with other people. When her work load and life <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">hassles</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">lessened</span> she showed up saying things, "I'm sure you think I'm ignoring you" along with the "worst" thing. It gave me pause and I thought, "No, I thought you were busy. It hadn't even <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">occurred</span> to me that you'd ignore me on purpose. You ignore people on purpose? That's pretty stinky. That's something a worst friend might do. You are a person who ignores her friends and doesn't even know the value of friendship! Whatever have I been thinking? Out with you!" </div><br /><div></div><div>Then I got my real voice in my head the one that's been tempered by actually knowing this woman and knowing she'll say those kinds of things and hope for a filter. I filtered. I love her to this day. But it's a drag to have to filter. And I'm doubting the value of the messy man. They would do all of a favor if it stopped. And who knows how many people have been alienated by that negative language? </div><br /><div></div><div>3. Then there's this positive transference thing too. Say something good about somebody to a third person and they'll put those <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">attributes</span> on to you. Like to Mary, "Brenda is so generous and creative." Mary will think you are a generous and creative person too. It's weird and there's science behind it. If I were the kind of blogger that actually kept notes while they read I'd have a link for you. Someday, someday. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>But the point is:</strong></div><div><strong></strong></div><br /><div>Use this stuff to better situate yourself in the world. 1. Define who you are or want to be and act that way. Tell people you're all that too. 2. Don't do yourself any <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">misfavors</span></span> by talking junk about yourself. Enough people want to drag you down, you need not add to it. 3. Say something nice about other people. If the transference thing doesn't motivate you, think of it as good karma. Kind words will get you some kind words. </div><br /><div></div><div>And whoa Nelly. That's all <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">advicey</span></span>. Game on. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-4170918894944550062009-05-06T23:36:00.004-04:002009-05-07T00:02:06.881-04:00Throughout<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg9ro8uX_HP0w7In1brLPExplPMnKivS_5F3aEkOu03hLqF9GMHXbdP-4brLhwv4rD2SNlVez5HFhHsTvcqGHRF2nQL-6CewQsXRpDSDwLEdJ2rN_B6f8dQEBi8oIhdZv4y6Glat6XfnaX/s1600-h/babrie.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5332926466002154242" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 120px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg9ro8uX_HP0w7In1brLPExplPMnKivS_5F3aEkOu03hLqF9GMHXbdP-4brLhwv4rD2SNlVez5HFhHsTvcqGHRF2nQL-6CewQsXRpDSDwLEdJ2rN_B6f8dQEBi8oIhdZv4y6Glat6XfnaX/s320/babrie.jpg" border="0" /></a> Photo by: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/sheilatostes/">Sheila Tostes</a><br /><br />I really thought I'd be back to life sooner than I am.<br /><br />I thought I'd have this surgery business behind me and I'd be pouring out the words of my experience. Hard to write about other experiences when you are busy having an all together new one that takes up all the room in your life.<br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Recovering from 8 plus feet of incisions and having your skin all pulled tight is an experience.</strong><br /><br />Holy Crap. No one told me it would lay me out like it has. I'd not have believed them if they had. Liar, liar pants on fire. But there's not going back, only forward. So tally-ho.<br /><br />Oh, and my recovery is going with out much of a hitch. I'm doing better than most, so go figure. I'm just a not so fat big baby.<br /><br />But on to other more important news.<br /><br /><strong>The Book.</strong><br /><br /><br /><br />Well I've concluded that the book isn't going to be so much how you can do as I've done with charts and lesson, a how to guide to getting off your ass, but more how I did what I did and it's made me appreciate joy and happiness and living my life.<br /><br /><br /><br />And I'm going to write it in huge run-on sentences like the one above. No I jest. I won't end sentences with prepositions either. Well maybe I will, but that's just to be conversational. My father always said and probably still does, but we don't talk much these days, "I can do nothing about" when asked to influence a situation that was out of his control. I always would mumble, "it, you need to add an it."<br /><br /><br /><br />Anyway, next week looks incredibly less busy and I'm hoping I'm feeling incredibly more well so I plan on getting some words down in regard to The Book. Go me.<br /><br />Photo used under <a href="http://www.flickr.com/creativecommons">Flickr Creative Commons License.</a>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-56022438126536499302009-04-19T23:21:00.007-04:002009-04-20T00:09:50.470-04:00People PostsI was looking at my list of things to write about. Yes, I have a list. Well a few lists. If you knew me you would not be surprised. I could chart out my lists ala Excel but that would be just too much for you.<br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>People<br /><br /></strong><strong></strong>Anyway, one of them is titled "People Posts" and it's just a list of some of the people who've influenced or touched my life in poignant ways over the course of the last few years. Of course if I were to list it out here there would be an outcry by those thought to be overlooked (I have visions of grander) but more surprisingly I smiled as I reviewed the names. It was a while ago that I created it. Everyone still deserves their place but some of the sweetnesses have slipped my mind, seeing their names again however brought the kindnesses and memories back to me.<br /><br />So here's the thing, of course they will be in The Book, which will be the working title in this blog, but I believe names will need to be changed to protect the innocent. Or really to keep me from having to fish for permission from each and every one.<br /><br /><strong>What will I call who?</strong><br /><br />Sabrina? Tina? Tracy?<br /><br />As I think about that, let me say near to the top of the list is someone whom I'm not related to nor do I sleep with that has been the single most influential woman I've met in the last 10 years. We met on line. She's had the same weight loss surgery as me and we met on a site that caters to that segment of the population. We have a similar sense of cynical humor and view food from the exact equally screwed up perspective. We also share a love of cycling and rarely found commitment to keeping our word. She's got more integrity than I can measure.<br /><br />Aside from that we are ends of the spectrum. She's 20 something, I'm 40 something. She's married (to a freaking man no less) with kids. And I'm queer, divorced, sharing a kid with another woman and in a long distant relationship. She goes to church and I go to brunch. She's republican and my fingers can hardly type the word.<br /><br /><strong>Daily</strong><br /><br />We send emails everyday. I keep up with her family details...her boy just got glasses, and she keeps up with mine. I can't imagine the last two years without her constant voice rattling around in the back of my head. She has inspired me and told me to quit my whining. She's been the voice of reason and has granted me permission to wallow.<br /><br />A mere suggestion from her or a full on taunt had me partnered up doing the<a href="http://www.blogger.com/www.muddybuddy.com"> Muddy Buddy </a>last year and we are signed up again for this summer. Yes, I'm bitter, but deep down she makes me a better person.<br /><br /><strong>There is a point to this, and I'm getting there.<br /></strong><br />There are too many silly stories to share here and this is sappy even for me, but needless to say, no one journeys through life alone. Lucky are those who find kindred spirits and lucky are we that we live in a time when two people in different states can come together and make real live friendships that two people living as neighbors would rarely ever create.<br /><br />And look at me loving my friends in yet another post. Insipid, I know.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-7869266842574200112009-04-17T00:33:00.008-04:002009-04-17T01:08:47.925-04:00Getting Back to Regular<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWdo9rpCO-DQnNIodxzvUebE2S0WooZI2r3-gLQmJ-2_afxZ-AkDHocIpwNSW6A2sLyYKD710kqkHrjbwbjmIxzt59gYzokYT_omn_bSMZipacgEKSGdbkGrB0OB3O2eTTjbngZZtzY_gO/s1600-h/heart.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5325520298770548706" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 233px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWdo9rpCO-DQnNIodxzvUebE2S0WooZI2r3-gLQmJ-2_afxZ-AkDHocIpwNSW6A2sLyYKD710kqkHrjbwbjmIxzt59gYzokYT_omn_bSMZipacgEKSGdbkGrB0OB3O2eTTjbngZZtzY_gO/s320/heart.jpg" border="0" /></a>Photo by: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/teagrrl/">ms. Tea</a> <div></div><br /><div>It's after midnight and I'm feeling little pain because of narcotics. Funny I choose to write, because pain medication does little to help me focus and contrary to what it may seem I do focus a bit when I write. I try.<br /></div><div>But <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ahhh</span>...insomnia induced by a pot of white tea has me up past midnight sitting at my laptop with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1"><a href="http://creativecommons.org/">Pandora</a></span> playing happy tunes and blogger open. This feels so close to regular I could cry. It's been a minute since I've felt regular. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Insomnia</span>, music, and words. I'm making lists in my head too. I've missed that so much. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>Why?</strong></div><div></div><br /><div>I've been skinned alive and stitched back together in the most <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">humanely</span> way possible within the confines of what is medically ethical and it hurts like a mother. After massive weight loss the lucky ones of us sign up for massive body reconstruction. I am as gratified for my life and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">opportunities</span> as I am in pain. Which is quite a lot, if you haven't yet caught on that ouch, this hurts. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>Meaning I feel fortunate to:</strong> </div><br /><div>have lost the weight</div><div>afford the plastic surgery (or finance it)</div><div>have a job which allows me ample time off<br />to be fit enough so as to recover without issue</div><div></div><br /><div>But what I feel even more fortunate about is the outpouring of support and love from the people around me. Folks offering to shop for my groceries, put my kid to bed, mow my lawn, buy me dinner, taxi me about...I knew I had a circle of good people. But seeing it manifest so tangibly makes my heart grow a size or two. Thanks my people. </div><br /><div><strong>So regular is good.</strong><br /></div><div>Plans are good. Moving forward is good too. And yes, there are many posts to be written. I'm so excited to be getting back. </div><div></div><div></div><br /><div>Photo credit <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/teagrrl/">http://www.flickr.com/photos/teagrrl/</a> by use of <a href="http://creativecommons.org/">Creative Commons on <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Flickr</span></a></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-24030887100198615172009-04-04T19:07:00.006-04:002009-04-04T19:49:09.423-04:00Friends<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4StlRbb92DQHptN_O7vqlWATvnd006N1OZAWveQ6a1GInZIwsKXjdwDKWGzYZFTVBrvI5c40LvhWMxAnzxZnWkQ__8dbR_reMbPChlFfuT39qJDe3LxiAs7we2owfVo0IywOiwAG9l-oJ/s1600-h/waffle.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5320985648195765490" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 160px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4StlRbb92DQHptN_O7vqlWATvnd006N1OZAWveQ6a1GInZIwsKXjdwDKWGzYZFTVBrvI5c40LvhWMxAnzxZnWkQ__8dbR_reMbPChlFfuT39qJDe3LxiAs7we2owfVo0IywOiwAG9l-oJ/s320/waffle.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />Photo:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/8136496@N05/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">terren</span> in Virginia</a><br /><br /><strong>I freaking love Brunch</strong><br /><strong></strong><br />It's a shame that not all my people read this here blog because all my people are asking questions and sending me well wishes for the upcoming week. I want to tell them all, "Of course I'm anxious and I indeed appreciate your kind thoughts." Now don't mind me if I go into hiding for a few weeks. You'll get a call to let you know I made it through the surgery. Promise.<br /><br />But talking about my people and this coming week and my past week there was a epiphany of sorts. Many people know that I've been busting my butt to lose weight, it's dramatic and visually obvious, thanks for noticing. This coming week's surgery, where my skin is going to be retrofitted to my now smaller body, is a product of that effort.<br /><br />Last week I finished my MBA. Many people know about that too. Thanks for the cards and the "congratulations" and yes, I am very proud of myself. I too can't believe it's <em>finally </em>over.<br /><br />But the third thing of which I'm equally proud of is that during the years I've spent in school and losing weight I actively went about cultivating genuine friends too. Not networking in a plotted way, but making existing friendships stronger and creating new friendships where before there was a void.<br /><br /><strong>I love you, my people.</strong><br /><br />And then there's this happiness thing. I've been reading <a href="http://www.happiness-project.com/happiness_project/">Gretchen on the Happiness Project</a> which is amazing and gives me more good ideas than anything else I come across. You should read it too. And there's also <a href="http://www.thisibelieve.org/">This I Believe</a> which a while ago talked about cake on Fridays as a standing tradition. I can't find the actual story. But it spoke of community and love and cake and family. What's not to like about all that?<br /><br />Well, now school is done, my home is happy, my life is moving in a crazy new directions-I'm scared I'll lose old work friends if I don't put something in place. I have few traditions from my childhood but I actively work to give them to my daughter, I love cooking and can't eat nearly all the wonderful things I enjoy making, which tied to a happiness project got me thinking about brunch.<br /><br /><strong>HAPPY BRUNCH</strong><br /><br />I'm going to have a monthly open house brunch to make happy with my friends. Yeah, this is going to have to wait until after I recover, but it won't wait too long. There will be food and joy.<br /><br />I love cooking, tradition and friends. I have the time.<br /><br />I'm going to have to put this in email, to my people, so they will show up. But I thought I'd put it here too well, because why not?<br /><br />Would you like to join us? You're welcome. Just bring some eggs or juice or bagels or something and a some happy conversation. We'd love to have you.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-91235207050786200552009-03-31T18:44:00.009-04:002009-03-31T23:08:25.883-04:00White People<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPeLL65ytlnV1Dhpq3dhyphenhyphenOxNN02QXCkxIlhbaHk2GcmE5RxgnywEvxgLGXlZo8wF3_bhEELbbrlVhBP1_H28kyMlbEIlni5Okgmhihi58QNvpeZlxGdISmWH4optwDnE9rSZTYQQ2lc7k8/s1600-h/wht+people.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5319507733707638018" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPeLL65ytlnV1Dhpq3dhyphenhyphenOxNN02QXCkxIlhbaHk2GcmE5RxgnywEvxgLGXlZo8wF3_bhEELbbrlVhBP1_H28kyMlbEIlni5Okgmhihi58QNvpeZlxGdISmWH4optwDnE9rSZTYQQ2lc7k8/s320/wht+people.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong></strong></div><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xctmx/"></a><div>Photo By: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/xctmx/">A National Acrobat</a><strong></strong></div><div><strong></strong></div><div><strong>My head hurts.</strong></div><div></div><br /><div>I'm at that spot where I'm at a loss for words. Well no, there are always words but my thoughts and what I'm thinking aren't coalescing neatly. I can't spit them out like I'd like. </div><div></div><br /><div>Here's the back story.</div><div></div><br /><div>I'm the white half of an interracial couple. No, I don't expect that to get me any awards, but what it does give me a little up close observation on the affects of race on us. I'm also a lesbian. Again I'm not looking for any acknowledgement of being different but in the journey of figuring it out, and it did take some figuring because it's not like it was assigned visibly at birth, where people could instruct me. As in, "Girl, you like the girls. That means the dirt covered ones, who like sports and swagger a bit are going to curl your toes. What you need to do is...." </div><div></div><br /><div>But when I did find my like minded girls it was, dear god this is cliche, in a Women's Studies class at college. Whatever, bring on the revelations, I don't care how cliche they may be. And it was in that same class where I was introduced to the concept of privilege. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>Privilege as a concept is some heady stuff.</strong> </div><div></div><br /><div>Mind you this spawned a long and dark period of humorless political correctness which was all the rage at the time too. We are talking circa 1988. But some things took hold. You know, things such as really looking at the power dynamics of most uncomfortable situations. As I've matured, and I have, I can actively choose to act or not <em>react</em> to what unfolds around me. I can label and analyze and decide where I might have impact. Then move or not move. But usually, not being shy, I move. </div><br /><div></div><div>At any rate there's all that. There's also <a href="http://www.womanist-musings.com/2009/03/i-can-declare.html">Womanist Musings</a> to which I subscribe because she's genius. (Just read it and get your mind blown.) Who clearly and recently brought to the forefront of my thinking again, that if you ain't it, then shut the hell up about who they might be. She was talking about a trans person. If she feels she is a she, then who is anyone else to say otherwise. No one else walks around in her skin. Call her she/her/hers. It's not complicated. It's not mine to determine. It is hers. Period. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>Period.</strong> <span style="font-size:85%;">That's for emphasis.</span></div><div></div><br /><div>So to tie this rambling together I encountered a white woman today who took it upon herself to define just how <em>unblack </em>another person was. She used ridicule and snarky language to deride this person and how she chose to represent herself. And I did use my words to say, "touch not", which is very ASL, and that she was out of line, in English, but white woman continued. Not Black Enough Woman was mean to her, thus it was her excuse to shred her apart. </div><br /><div></div><div>Actually, call Not Black Enough Woman all kinds of things that were pertinent to the conversation where mean things were said. But do not ever, feel you can define what or who someone else is. Because you can't and to assume you can or that you even <em>MAY</em> is just the height of privilege racist ego. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>Did I say this hurts my head?</strong> </div><br /><div></div><div>Now what pisses me off more than not being heard when I said "shut up" is that I don't think I can encounter white woman again without explaining the whole house of privilege, again, which won't sink in, again, and I'm going to have to write her off. I explain things twice; a few times if you're paying me to, but otherwise if you can't get it we're done. </div><div></div><br /><div>I'm disappointed. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-67479638711452452552009-03-30T23:32:00.005-04:002009-03-31T00:05:12.988-04:00Writing Soon<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQC-8JVXFQxvwx0SFI1CPKiTn8Aa5O8wMOqwZrxTlW6Al5mWpmM7G-kCHFxpkKQtwMKReS_9lKCIPZBUbEMQVUeZ_KOmOu1lXM8VZdUgogdqF3gHFfXXGNvYNQTZGE8i8iS2-IPkew2c78/s1600-h/writing.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5319194876977614450" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 180px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQC-8JVXFQxvwx0SFI1CPKiTn8Aa5O8wMOqwZrxTlW6Al5mWpmM7G-kCHFxpkKQtwMKReS_9lKCIPZBUbEMQVUeZ_KOmOu1lXM8VZdUgogdqF3gHFfXXGNvYNQTZGE8i8iS2-IPkew2c78/s320/writing.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>Photo: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/pingu1963/">Pingu1963<br /></a><div></div><div><strong>It's Wrapped</strong></div><div><strong></strong></div><div>I've not posted in some time because I've been busy wrapping up school. As in finished. Done. Poke it with a toothpick and the batter will be set, only crumbs sticking to it. The internal temperature of the pork is well over 160. It's done. I'm refraining from saying the juices will run clear, because that's just too nearly sexual. And school was many things, but sexy it was not. </div><br /><div></div><div>In good blog fashion I should say what it was and expand on that but it's too soon. It's a degree that says I put my time and perhaps learned something. That's where I'm leaving it now. </div><br /><div></div><div>Since finishing school I went to the library and got books. I read "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert on the flight to and from Las Vegas this weekend. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>Me and My Ego</strong></div><div><strong></strong> </div><div>At one point before having read it, I said out loud and to someone I know, "I want to write the next EPL book." Oh, the arrogance in that there statement. It's a profound piece of writing which gave me chills and had me taking notes. I think the note taking has <em>everything </em>to do with my recent 5 year stint at the university. Regardless, I'm a few years behind the masses but wowzers. It was awesome. </div><br /><div></div><div>And my ego needs a check. </div><br /><div></div><div>Well maybe not, because while I find it funny that I could say what I said, my original intent of why I want to write is the same. I just want to tell my story and maybe inspire someone to make changes in their own life that will lead to their own personal happiness. Kind of like if I can pick myself up and change two very fundamental things about myself which caused me all kinds of pain, then maybe someone else can too. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>The point is to not live in pain and fear but to live in joy.</strong> </div><br /><div></div><div>And there are ways to really master that. Which while I'm no master I've been collecting tools of change for decades and want to share them. </div><br /><div></div><div>Not here, not now, because well, that too deep for today's little post. </div><br /><div></div><div>But if my book only gets in the hands a few people, then that's okay, because it will be what it's supposed to be. Here is where I straddle the line between wanting EVERYTHING to be the best possible <em>thing </em>it can be, hoping for some serious return on investment in many ways like EPL but also knowing that the return need not mean dollars and probably won't. (But dollars would be awfully nice.) Because the intent is in the writing not in the selling of the book. Also, I know good intent doesn't equal good book. Good intent still can leave a mess. </div><div> </div><div><strong>It will all shake out.</strong> </div><div></div><br /><div>Because everything always shakes out, right? There is so much to plan for. The writing time is quickly approaching. I'm excited. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-43970200108844992332009-03-15T19:25:00.009-04:002009-03-15T20:29:33.231-04:00EPIC? Me? Go on. Really?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw9Q-rhvR_G8hGL-GbhpsVPr67XMz5YISxxFGdZfbOeQlTkKgvC3J4JaUUtOV814EIk0fZZRFx69sJAhQ4m_M0cAFVa0X3OXkvgNJno1Uxd_6bhNv0fWGW3u0WjtPA0pXDDBvW1UZ_Ct0b/s1600-h/change.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5313575052690308098" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 182px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgw9Q-rhvR_G8hGL-GbhpsVPr67XMz5YISxxFGdZfbOeQlTkKgvC3J4JaUUtOV814EIk0fZZRFx69sJAhQ4m_M0cAFVa0X3OXkvgNJno1Uxd_6bhNv0fWGW3u0WjtPA0pXDDBvW1UZ_Ct0b/s320/change.jpg" border="0" /></a>Photo: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ppdigital/">Darren Hester<br /></a><div></div><div></div><div>I read this post by Charlie at productive flourishing. He's a genius. <a href="http://www.productiveflourishing.com/do-epic-shit/">http://www.productiveflourishing.com/do-epic-shit/</a><br /></div><div>The concept is amazing. Well not really, the concept is pretty much, do big things and get big results. Don't do something small and work like hell to make it look big. Start with EPIC as the mind set. </div><div> </div><div></div><div></div><div>I thought what's so epic about little ol' me? Well frankly everything and nothing at all. I mean day to day, I'm a regular woman. I go to work, feed the children, love my people, work with my body, grow my brain. I think most people do a smattering of that. I'm not so special.<br /><br /><strong>There's been a whole lot of change in the last couple of years.</strong></div><div> </div><div>But the everything part is that oh, about 6 years ago I thought the only way out of my then situation was for someone to die. Either me or my partner at the time. I was 34 and thought I was waiting for the end of a life so that what I really wanted to do could start. Isn't that so sad? I'd stick a frowny face in here if it weren't so cheesy. </div><div></div><div></div><div>Mind you I didn't want to kill her, nor did I want to die, but really, the thought, "Is this what I get?" saturated with disappointment about who I was and how I felt made me take stock, and say I can change this. </div><div></div><div></div><div>So I broke up with her. Big move, I realize.</div><br /><div></div><div></div><div><strong></strong></div><div><strong>We had a one year old.</strong> </div><div></div><div></div><div>That was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Breaking up with my partner meant that I would only have my child with half the time. What's <em>EPIC</em> about that? We are co parenting in a very collaborative, healthy way. The girl child's best interest is our ultimate decision question. Answer that and we are good to go. A lot of ego and hurt feelings has gotten set aside so we can do what is best for her. Girl child is the light of our lives. She fills our hearts and we are all happy. Also, ex's mother is among my dearest friends, to this day.<br /></div><div><strong>Then I decided to go back to school.</strong></div><div></div><div></div><div>Because now I was single and had a mortgage and only one income and a child to raise. The three jobs I was working still wasn't enough money at the end of week. I was making decisions about what bills not to pay.<br /></div><div>School was a way out economically, but it was a long view solution. It also was an answer to "How you can you stop hating yourself for never having gone to college even though you have very, very good explanations for not attending?" Going back to school to get an undergrad then a graduate degree at age 40 is <em>EPIC.</em> </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>Then I lost weight and in the process found a connection to my body.<br /></strong></div><div>Around 2006 I found out about lapbanding as a weight loss solution. After some soul searching I got on board and had that done in 2007. I've never looked back. I did my best to exercise and eat well. I looked at the opportunity as once in a lifetime chance to get regular so I worked it from every angle. I'm regular now and it's great. Losing 174 pounds is <em>EPIC.</em> </div><div></div><div></div><div>The collection of learning and people I've made along the way has been amazing. The shift in how I view the world, my potential and even my little brown house has gone from primarily negative to absolutely positive. And that is <em>EPIC.</em><br /></div><div>So what's that got to do with Charlie's post? How to take the humble story of me with all that gold and get it out there. I'm working on it. I suppose it's that book thing idea I have, that I don't want to talk about too much for fear of putting a whammy on it. Whammies and Hairy Eye Balls* dictate a lot of how I operate.<br /></div><div></div><div><span style="font-size:85%;">*Also known as the Evil Eye.</span><br /></div><div>Photo:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ppdigital/">http://www.flickr.com/photos/ppdigital/</a><br /></div><br /><div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-34849118738621912412009-03-14T01:00:00.003-04:002009-03-14T01:26:12.809-04:00Freaking OUT<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEnqy7oSS6ZHZXozS6n4ECHwitj-7gT_L3XhGxSivEv6j6X-u5e0pzgHYaDDRoAIAM_zmywQiULxL7W034Z-63lvFBL61gr4zUYSJrGfCgX0GdJ3GlxD02QUsvkwpy51dX_kY6HhqbP1Rm/s1600-h/freak+out.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5312910261548791314" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 180px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEnqy7oSS6ZHZXozS6n4ECHwitj-7gT_L3XhGxSivEv6j6X-u5e0pzgHYaDDRoAIAM_zmywQiULxL7W034Z-63lvFBL61gr4zUYSJrGfCgX0GdJ3GlxD02QUsvkwpy51dX_kY6HhqbP1Rm/s320/freak+out.jpg" border="0" /></a> Photo:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/perfesser_bear/">Perfesser_bear<br /></a><div></div><br /><div>I don't usually say I'm scared and burst into tears.<br /><br />I don't usually reveal that kind of stuff in the space either.<br /><br /><strong><em>What's going on with me today?</em></strong><br /><br />I'm just a few weeks away from graduating from school. I've been at it for 5 years. I do deserve to get done with it at some point.<br /><br />Add one more week to that and I'm getting parts of my body lobbed off. They are parts I don't want, not like an arm or anything. It's my excess skin, but really it's still mine and it's going to be costly and painful and disruptive to my daily flow.<br /><br />I'm scared of all the changes.<br /><br />Oh and they are happening in close succession because I'm a master with a Gantt* chart and I typically make things happen with pretty good timing. A few months ago I considered this good timing.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">* I heart Gantt, I read his biography, and I don't normally read biographies.</span><br /><br />There's a trip to Las Vegas in during the weekend between the two major life changing events as well. Yeah, I'm that good or that crazy depending on your point of view.<br /><br />So after I burst out into tears, my person, who knows me pretty well, went on to ask about the surgery recovery. She playfully stated that by the end of the six weeks I'll have my coaching business up and running and my book written.<br /><br />I said, "You think you're being funny, but that's kind of the plan."<br /><br />She said, "I wasn't being funny. I know that's how you operate."<br /><br /><strong>There is no mystery to me.<br /></strong><br />And really, the plan is to be enrolled in some coaching certification program before then and to solicit agents for the book. Which means writing bits and bios and outlines and comparing like books. Also doing research on the coaching programs out there. Who knew there were so many?<br /><br />But also cool, saying things out loud, to people like my on-line professor, such as, "Executive coaching is my ultimate career goal" got an offer to hook me up with someone she knows who is doing it for real, locally.<br /><br />So yeah, Julianna doesn't have a plan past the end of May and she's freaking out 8 different ways.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Photo:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/perfesser_bear/">http://www.flickr.com/photos/perfesser_bear/</a></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-77885279709645037262009-03-10T21:04:00.008-04:002009-03-10T22:13:57.050-04:00Life Lesson<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia6ePt0vZ6hcAiXSFCVr2W8dY1OjPRveZFdG5gYNVtjPNW-InMeoymQgrrvmCSxjpMMIChYIpMG8iz1PiVy1K2PTyKQtxMoBs_TiEg2NETTl5blJxq1Sbz7Cg1-BnwezRCHeCoGgT_Na1a/s1600-h/food+mouth.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311740173096173362" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 213px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia6ePt0vZ6hcAiXSFCVr2W8dY1OjPRveZFdG5gYNVtjPNW-InMeoymQgrrvmCSxjpMMIChYIpMG8iz1PiVy1K2PTyKQtxMoBs_TiEg2NETTl5blJxq1Sbz7Cg1-BnwezRCHeCoGgT_Na1a/s320/food+mouth.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzU14NqHkpOKiAEWhOLYBxrXwSunQJSRJmUXXpKz5tt8UKNfV0hv9T7NnTK8SCd3vEusbvkmeD2dA3PVlmly7y2PzkqqK991F0kZiwgLi-g2WO3V85cAPOO3PDOzMfhfZ0Y-meeGSBuY1K/s1600-h/open+mouth.jpg"></a>photo: by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/_lulu/3181743037/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">lu</span>_<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">lu</span></a><br /><div></div><div><strong>There was a woman in my life for many years.</strong> </div><div> </div><div>She's moved away, but I love her still. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>She was crazy.</strong> </div><div></div><div></div><div>You know the kind of crazy that can hang on to a job because it's union and she had the art of apology down really, really well. </div><br /><div></div><div>And actually she contributes amazingly to any community she is involved with. There's a small town in Alabama wondering what the hell is hitting them, as I type. </div><div></div><div></div><div>We worked together in the cafeteria. I am a lunch lady after all. Actually I was her boss, and like I said, I was on the receiving end of a few apologies but this isn't about that. </div><br /><div></div><div><em>There are shops she can't walk into for having lost her temper and basically calling out the injustices she witnessed. Only later with the clarity that only distance and time gives, would she <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">concede</span> there was probably a different point of view at play.</em> But the recanting of those stories always made for a good laugh.</div><br /><div></div><div><strong>This is about minding ones own business.</strong> </div><br /><div>Tending to ones own home before poking their nose in other people's houses.</div><br /><div></div><div>Why this and why now? Well I'm a lunch lady and I'm also a person who has had weight loss surgery. Someone on the message board I post on was talking about other people watching what she eats. I suppose people watch what I eat but I'm a little too busy to really be that involved watching people watching me. </div><br /><div></div><div><strong>I'm a little mean too.</strong> </div><br /><div>Well, not mean, but direct. And there is a perfect line from Ms B which rolls off my tongue regardless of the setting. So I suppose I do notice, but that's only after someone makes an oh so inappropriate comment about my nutritional selections. </div><div></div><div>It goes a like this: <em><strong>"What I eat, you don't shit. So don't worry 'bout what's on my plate."</strong></em> I have uttered those words countless times. </div><br /><div></div><div>You can join me too. That goes for the vegan, vegetarians, bacon eaters and anyone who has had to deal with anyone policing what you stick in your mouth. Claim your plate and your choices and tell people to get busy taking care of themselves.<br /></div><div></div>photo:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/_lulu/3181743037/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">lu</span>_<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">lu</span></a><br /><div></div><div></div></div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-84043911695031017702009-03-10T13:07:00.012-04:002009-03-10T14:48:19.020-04:00Eggs and Networking<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiw6tmKb1li4Q9TIHZeFzsjqanlhbmarZ0zdKyXh4B6LSRncX2jwmZYaxje_lcaidISRKUvfqHct9nfF8n66mI4BsruBdK-IJZxCON_1SM74DmSDMvdDjf1R363-Bdq7yoIgQCzUJ9IVVe6/s1600-h/eggs.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311611792647437810" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiw6tmKb1li4Q9TIHZeFzsjqanlhbmarZ0zdKyXh4B6LSRncX2jwmZYaxje_lcaidISRKUvfqHct9nfF8n66mI4BsruBdK-IJZxCON_1SM74DmSDMvdDjf1R363-Bdq7yoIgQCzUJ9IVVe6/s320/eggs.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicA_Zd9zkbw-SZ8imtM6ZpoTMMWATa2B3OrGJs6vu4ee26WDjj9v4UhEHYesfxnPdABW7DIhRy1IqhHok30MhBIwmRf0zyE3LtV0SELaxe2XxgBNMnYhTzBbPHEPxqxmkmD4lYvs_rr-XO/s1600-h/eggs.jpg"></a><br /><br /><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div>Photo Link: VirtualErn</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div><strong>You never know who you might meet when you walk into a room.</strong> </div><div></div><div></div><div>I came across a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">familiar</span> face today in a training session at work. We don't have many training sessions here and there's a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">pervasive</span> idea that they are optional, so I toyed with the idea of not going. But I'm at a point where I'm doing my best to tune in and stay connected and giving my agency my all. </div><div></div><br /><div>There is something about working hard until the very end and/or trying everything so when I walk away I can say I tried. Makes me feel good. </div><div></div><br /><div>But low, it was when I read the "howdy" screen and caught the name of the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">facilitator</span>/instructor I got excited. I knew him, knew his work. He was one of the first presenters I came across in my career who made me think, "I want that job." </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>He's that good.</strong></div><div>He's <a href="http://www.blogger.com/www.pcstraining.com">James White</a>. (Bad link! another thing to talk about!) </div><div><br /></div><div>At break I reconnected with him. There were other touch points where we've hit here and there so that was easy. But then and here's where Juli is wearing her big girl panties and projecting her value...I started talking about what I could do for him. </div><div></div><div></div><div><em>(I could have put a picture of big girl panties at the top which might have been more <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">provocative</span>, but really I see them as big white grannies that can get hitched up high, there's confidence in knowing your butt is covered.)</em><br /></div><div>We are going to meet and he's going to share his experiences, which are vast and valuable to me. And I'm going to kick him in the butt on social media and other ways to make more money. </div><div></div><div>Mentor meet motivator.</div><div></div><br /><div><strong>We are going to have eggs.</strong></div><div></div><br /><div>Having eggs is my favorite way to have a meeting with a person because:</div><br /><div>I can pick up the check because it's the cheapest meal of the day. </div><div>I do my best in the morning. </div><div>They don't get sidetracked with other obligations until later in the day.</div><div>And we all have to get back to work so there are finite time allotments. </div><div></div><br /><div><strong>I'm so completely stoked.</strong> </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Photo by:<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/dongkwan/">http://www.flickr.com/photos/dongkwan/</a><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">VirtualErn</span></div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-14063714225418879882009-03-03T11:56:00.005-05:002009-03-03T12:15:55.596-05:00Bring it on, Mrs O<a href="http://www.mrs-o.org/?p=4461">Mrs O</a> is one of my favorite blogs. Certainly the First Lady is much more than a style icon. She's smart, professional, compassionate, fierce and by all means a delight to have representing women of America.<br /><br />This isn't to dismiss the fact that she's being unpaid to do her job, and it is a job, to support her man, and our country, to be the woman in the White House. But if someone has got to do it, I'm happy it is her.<br /><br />While reading this happy piece of blog talking about her necklace there was conversation about the designer <a href="http://www.interviewmagazine.com/blogs/fashion/2009-02-18/tom-binns-new-store/">Binns</a> and his opening a new place in NYC in this economy. I love the bring it on mentality he has.<br /><br />You know, if you're going to live your dream, do it. It's like I double dog dare you to get in my way. How can anyone come across that and not be inspired?<br /><br />And I get I'm all happy for someone who is creating couture items when most of the world is hurting, but none the less, I love the attitude.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-9049236577448706642009-03-02T13:44:00.005-05:002009-03-02T15:20:46.005-05:00Show UpGetting caught up on the RSS feeds in my Google Reader inspires me. I'm not talking about the numbers going from 43 to 0 but reading all the cool and useful and interesting stuff out there.<br /><br /><strong>I'm freakin' awestruck.</strong><br /><br />It's not that any single voice is daunting or spell binding -though fantastic all of them are- it is the collection of thought, the sound reason, the motivation spilling off the page that has me sitting agape.<br /><br />I feel particularly special to be in the same orbit as these folks. I feel like I fit in too. A blogger, with words and thoughts I want to share. I'm struck that the invitation is always standing, always open for people to join in the discussion and take away the pieces that may work.<br /><br /><strong>Which leads me to this theory</strong><br /><br />There is always a party happening and one can always attend. Just don't show up and be an ass. Even if you think you might not fit in with the crowd, you'd be surprised. The people at the party want to meet you too. Again, if you leave the ass behavior at home, and be genuine and open, you'll have a good time.<br /><br />Let me share an example of when this happened in my real life. Being super morbidly obese I typically didn't feel comfortable in the gym. There are oodles of people there who are fit and <em>perfect </em>and I was obviously not. But part of the plan to get from where I didn't want to be to where I wanted to be included working out. At a gym.<br /><br />So I went.<br /><br />People weren't horrible. I went more often and I wasn't an ass and actually pretty quickly a circle of people chatted me up and shared their stories. Come to find out these <em>perfect</em> people have been some of the strongest most encouraging voices along the way. I may have never found out the Brad Pitt look-a-like really digs Cross-Fit if I didn't ask what the he was doing. (And now I love it too). Barbie may have never gone a run with me but I asked her if she would, now I have an occasional running buddy. We talk about returning to college later in life. I would have never guessed.<br /><br />Maybe because they see the work I've done or maybe because I speak their language and made an effort to connect or maybe because people are decent and they are looking for people too. I don't know I'm just happy I tried.<br /><br /><strong>There are other parties happening else where too.</strong><br /><br />So you want to learn to speak publicly. There's Toastmasters. They've got a system. They'll let you play. You want to learn to golf, learn astronomy, or pottery? There are people out there who's passion is just those things and they will share with you and call you friend. What do you have to do? Show up.<br /><br /><strong>Showing up is the hard part.</strong><br /><br />We tell ourselves that we aren't good enough, smart enough, skilled enough, or heaven forbid, we say we are above these lowly folks. That's the don't be an ass part. If the first group of folks aren't your people and there are many reason why they might not be, there are others who potentially are.<br /><br />Go find them. They are waiting for you. Well, not really the party isn't going to comense when you walk in the door. It's been rolling along, they are having a good ol' time without you.<br /><br />Certainly, if you show up they'll share with you what they know.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1007886621416049413.post-41775852173307532652009-02-26T19:54:00.006-05:002009-02-26T20:33:21.039-05:00Time to Rest<strong>When all is going as it should do you start looking for trouble?</strong><br /><br />I do. Well I used to and it's a habit I'm trying very hard to break. It takes some effort to say, "You know, I'm allowed to have easy. It's going to get hard in a minute so take the break while you can."<br /><br />But as soon as I exhale if I'm not careful I start finding new things to do. I'm resisting it. It's hard, but I am.<br /><br />I have <a href="http://isabeljoelyblack.wordpress.com/">Ms Black </a>getting all <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">coachy</span> which is amazing and seems like the perfect fit for her. I'm so stoked to see what her model will look like and how freaking cool it will all come to be. I assure you it will be amazing because she has<em> that</em> touch.<br /><br />But the my take home message is "what are you waiting on?" And really the answer is graduation in 5 weeks, huge surgery and weeks of recovery and then the plan to write as have it established. The coaching gig for me will come later...but I've the itch.<br /><br />Also, I have people coming into my office, closing the door, asking me if they can be my test customers (read free advice) and if I can help them figure out what to do with their lives, husbands, and jobs. So the word's out that I've got the skills. I just don't have the structure or the time to commit.<br /><br /><strong>It's not time, it's not time, it's not time.</strong><br /><br />Do you like the mantra?<br /><br />So I'm trying to rest on easy. School work is low key right now. It's stuff that I love. Succession Planning. Oh,<em> planning</em>. Planning excites me. Corporate planning and skill building gives me shivers of delight. So I exaggerate, but still it's the stuff I love way more than say accounting.<br /><br />There's all kinds of incredible things and happy off beat stuff happening right now. There are connections that are wild which I can't even put words to. I'm at a place where I just kind of want to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">receive</span> instead of produce.<br /><br /><strong>That is new.</strong><br /><br />That my friends is an <em><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">epiffy</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">rockin</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">ee</span>.</em>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14978543246516489151noreply@blogger.com1